| in every girls life
there is gonna be one boy
that she will never forget
& a summer where it all began Whats happin? whats up? haha lol anyways...havent been on this thang in for ever ..well school has been great...im makin straight A's ( go Laura) and im about to be 18...Life just cant get any better right now...i got an AMAZING boyfriend and a GREAT family...man i have jus learned so much lately...God has showed me so much and i know now what i have to do..i have finally got my proirities in check ( thank God its about time) i can finally say im threw with the old Laura and i have changed...i know some people wont believe but hey thats on you, your not my judge..yeah ive had a pretty messed up past but i got this life of mine straight now. I know what i want && im goin after it. Man i jus cant wait till i graduate so i can be with my baby.....heck yes thats goin to be tha best day of my life. Ima carry his baby one of these days and i can promise you that.. anyways yeah i started this LA WEIGHTLOSS thing and i have only been on it for 2 weeks and ive lost 10 pounds!!! hehe so excited yall jus wait Laura gon be skinny again around christmas....ladies look out hah naw yall im jus playin im totally inlove with aj....thas my boo no one or nobody is goin to come in between us...ive been with this boy off an on for 4 years and i love him so much hez jus my world i jus cant wait to show him off to the world...and say "thats him" and yes he is black but i dont care yall prejudice people can go to hell if ya ask me cuz i love him and no one can love me better |
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| Im SoOo HapPy.....Im iN lUv An It feEls GrEat..... |
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| u know what i need a man someone to hold me tight im so tired of guys usin me .... why cant i find my mr right....i thaught i had him but he turned out to be a cheatin bastard......
u know alot of me has changed in these last few months.....i've realized alot here lately u know how they say " U dont Know what u got til its gone" well i lost the love of my life over my childish stupidity...i wonder if he can ever forgive me and we can atleast be friends again that would be nice but then again i dont think i can ever forgive him for all the pain he caused me all the lies and deciet....i swear i never cheated on him while we were together....i loved him and i still do but i know whats best its best we are seperated i mean our lives are goin in two opposite directions he has his goals i have mine....but yet my heart still misses him terribly but its the dreadful truth he is never comming back and i have to accept that we both fucked up each others lives enough i wish him the best i pray for him more then i pray for myself ....i wish i could go back tho and change everything i cant unlove him its impossible it hurts so bad i want him back so bad but i know that there is no way in hell things would ever be the same i miss the love the way we made love and how he would say i love you i miss that night he looked me in my eyes and a tear ran down his face and he said i was beautiful and that he loved me.........u know im startin to believe that i was jus used for money...that he really never cared and i was jus a good piece of pussy ya know....but then again i refuse to beleive that cuz how could somebody be so heartless and be so fake like that how can u say i love u if u dont mean it........it kills me to know he is touchin someone else and someone else has taken my place he promised me he would never leave me but he lied i wish i could jus have one more day with him thats all i ask why god must i love him yet i hate him so much.........i thaught i was over him but just all of a sudden all these memories start haunting me i see him in my dreams he is everywhere..........ugggh i hate it why god why
and then on top of that i cant trust no guys what so ever they all jus use me and the nice ones that will treat me right i dont want nothing to do with them because my worst fear is not happining a second time im not gettin my heart broken again i refuse i jus cant take this shit no more i cant god help me |
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| well well life is crazy right now so im currently single cuz richard is an ass tell me how somebody gon say he got a girl after we have sex? that is so fucked up and we was goin to be together too but fuck him i got somebody else i got my eye on and he is so fuckin fine it aint even funny but yeah life is crazy jus gotta learn to live with it but yeah i really am lookin fo someone to hold me and love me im tired of playin games i need love
but yeah me and muh gurl brittany got our belly buttons peirced and we been losin weight we gon be so sexy ass mother fuckers in a month or two hahah but yeah i love muh gurl brittany she has been with me thru it all and i love her so much god knows i couldnt live with out her and we gettin tan too hehe im so pretty wen im tan lol jus messin but yeah
IM A FUCKIN SENIOR BABY!!!!! 07 bitch whatcha know about that?
this summer is gon be the shit partys gettin drunk hell yeah hahah brittany we crazy girl but anyways i gotta go muh gurl here to pick me up holla |
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